Then a great and powerful wind tore the mountains apart and shattered the rocks before the Lord, but the Lord was not in the wind. After the wind there was an earthquake, but the Lord was not in the earthquake. After the earthquake came a fire, but the Lord was not in the fire.
The Lord said, “Go out and stand on the mountain in the presence of the Lord, for the Lord is about to pass by.”
And after the fire came a gentle whisper.
Let me admit on this entry that I had been struggling the past months, for so many reasons and it all boils down to exhaustion. I don’t want to move or talk to people but my inner self knew that I must and I should.
Because the more we feel empty the more we need time to reconnect and rekindle the relationships.
And so I strive everyday to talk to people, for some I shared my issues but for others I just wanted to feel that I am needed or being checked if I’m still alive and kickin’.
This morning I still feel the same, and while riding the vehicle for work I started reading on downloaded materials in my phone. I end up reading about Elijah, my eyes rolled and I knew I must not read it. But I knew I need to read those lines that time.
As my eyes move from left to right and downward I can’t help but remember my own exhaustion.
Lines that stricken me directly and my heart broke in many pieces but now I have solutions.
There he went into a cave and spent the night. The Lord Appears to Elijah.
Darkness will not hinder the presence of my Maker. It will not able to penetrate instead my Lord’s presence will sneak its way to whatever situation I’m trapped. In the darkness that maybe caused by my choices, or because the season allows it, He will still appear, and He will still be with me.
And the word of the Lord came to him: “What are you doing here, Elijah?”
He is still the very personal Savior. He will call my name and ask me question directly. His every word will caught me off guard and I cannot help but surrender because the words He spoke is real and with tenderness.
He replied, “I have been very zealous for the Lord God Almighty. The Israelites have rejected your covenant, torn down your altars, and put your prophets to death with the sword. I am the only one left, and now they are trying to kill me too.”
He listens. He gave me time to think things over. He let me put words to my emotion. And He is patient. He didn’t interrupt but instead let me orate my litany even its all about selfishness and self righteousness. The reality that when we are hurt I can only think about myself, all self absorption. As if the Lord didn’t notice my pain and hurt. All in my head I will die and God has no plans.
And to conclude this post I take heart, because this is just a season of this life journey. I will rest in the vastness of His comfort, knowing that in the midst of pain He offers rest in His presence.
Question: When was the last time you pause and enjoy rest time?